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Friday and then what?

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Yes it is finally Friday again! the weeks goes so fast! I can not belive that it is soon Christmas and then the darkness will start to go away again. But until then my dear dark friends we are still in the dark  seeking the light. 

This is the time for less cute movies like Coprs Bride or Nightmare before Christmas…. Coroline is a nother one of my favorite movies. Curle up in bed with one of those movies the world will become brigther by itself. Yes I like darkness and dark colors, but that does not meen I do not like the light. But one can not be in the light before one has been in the dark…. 

 

Soon very soon is summer upon us again! Sunny days and hardly any darkness at night! Life is short and so is summer! Darkness will be creaping up the doorstep once again.

The conclution is that everything goes by so fast enjoy it while you can and do not wait too long.

Slowly, very slowly is winter comming….

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 Something is dead wrong this year! We still have green grass on the gound and it is allready November! Where is the snow and the cold? (Not that  I like the cold so much, but I like some snow.)

The snow kind of makes it less dark and it brings the thoughts of Christmas. The holidays are just around the bend and we have now snow! That is bad! Give me some snow for Christmas please! I love to see the snow on the trees and rooftops…. Nothing is nicer than new snow on the ground, untoucthed and soft. 

Theres is one thing that is better than that,(besides sun and warm weather) and that is hot cocoa or tea wrapped up in a blanked listening to the kids play.

Well I guess I can do the hot tea wrapped up in a blanket and listen to the kids play at least…. A fast pased walk home, pancakes and some time in the gym is not to bad eather, not as relaxing, but energetic. Then in the end relaxation in bed with my hubby and my tea cup as the darkness kind of slowly takes over up here.

God Bless! 

Soooo tired!

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 Well, I do not think that anyone has missed that it is Monday! I wish I could stay in bed and just sleep. Hibernate just like the bears, does not sound to bad now. It is mid November and still no snow! It is warm, even for this season…. Could it be just a fluke, or a warning of some sort? No matter what it is I am tired! the darkness kind of take a hold on me. Life seams so slow, like everything wants to go o sleep and wake up in springtime. 

But on the other hand…. What if it is no a fluke and it is a warning that something big is comming…. Like Christmas! but then a Christmas without snow and a dark sky with billion stars on is not really Christmas. (Or do I sound to much like the Grinch now?)

 

Well, tomorow is a brand new day, with no end to the possabilities…. or? Well, that is tomorrow, today is still here and demands attention. We have a sunny day so all is not bad…. The glas is at least half empty….!!(HA!)

Friday….

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Yes it is Friday! weekend is around the corner and I am not so tired today. Could be all the candy I have eaten today.( Yes I know that it is not saturday and candy day). But I was given two small boxes with candy today. A coworker did not want them, so he gave them to me! Yey! 

I am so very happy! I think that today will be a very good day. Even for a little darkling like me…. 

I spoke with my dad yeaterday and he told me some good news. My grandmother whom have been very ill and spent time in the hospital for a massive coronary thrombosis during the weekend could go home yeaterday. It was touch and go for her, but she pulled through and that is good. She is over eighty and still going strong! I wish I can be as full off life and energy at her age. She is one tough coockie and I do admire her! Half of my childhood was spent with her and my grandpa, so much of who I am today is thanks to her and him! My grandpa died many years ago in an massive coronary thrombosis….

But I guess that we never know when the bell toll. I am not worried though, when ever my time is, it is up. Because in the end we all will go the same way. 

 

("That is not dead which can eternal lie,
And with strange aeons even death may die. " HP Lovecraft)

 

 

Just one of those days….

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 It just is one of those days when everything feels like I want to stick my head in a whole, or pull the covers over my head and npt wake up til spring…. Yes! These type of days are the once when I like to crank the volume up, close my eyes and drift away listening to Coriolis music. Songs like Cry Wolf, Welcome to my world and a few others sits just fine. Gives me strenght to continue for the rest of the day. 

 

My family are my strenght as well, do not think anything else! But sometimes when I feel drained the music gives me back the energy that I need. Yes the music sounds dark, but as I allready have stated earlier dark is not bad. Even the darkness can give comfort and strenght, because even in there is there some light if you look closer. Even black has diffrent shades. I will come back to this every now and then, becasue I can….

So today is just one of those days when I need to listen and regain my strenght, in order to funktion the rest of this day. I hope I have a better Friday.

Beacon of light in the dark

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 Lets see! It is Wendsday and November…. Hmm, it is dark outside and foggy. Could that be why I feel so dark and happy on the inside? Yes I am happy and dark on the inside today and it is possible! 

It could be that I am allready tired and want to go home and sleep, but it could allso be another poem starting to come to form…. One could never realy tell…. I am a very cheerful goth, with a twisded mind and humor that hit the depths quite often! No, not depressed or sad, just dark and twisded, (try Burton dark) and you have come close. It is not so that I long for death or hang at cemetaries…. I just like the darker parts in life, because it is where we can work on helping the light come through…. Darkness is not bad, it is just a good place to go when you need some lone time from everything. A place to catch up with yourself and breathe, so you can make it a bit longer in this world that we live in. In order to rest in the light later you have to walk through the valley off death first. When your time is up  you get the reward and go in to the light. But before we can go there we have to build the beakons of light to shine in the dark here. 

So that is why I am happy and dark on the inside.

Why beauty products?

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 I can not help but wounder why we have all these products to help get rid of wrinkels, so that we will look younger. They are expensive and tiny, with a big promise that you will emeditly look so much younger! Well I would never ever use them, because I think that no matter how young you look, you still grow old on the inside. You can not fool death by looking younger! Why are we so oppsessed with age, or rather the lack of age? I will turn 40 next year, and I am happy to say so! I am not afraid to grow old, I kind of like it. 

So if you realy still think that you need to look younger? Well to start with, get a body lotion with vitamine E and oliv oil. Use that after every shower. Find a shower lotion/soap with vitamine E an oliv oil in. When you remove makeup, instead of the expensive stuff in the store, use regular cheep olivoil! Pour some in your hand, massage it in your face and whatever other area you have had makeup on. then you take the shower soap/ loiton and wash off the oliv oil. Done your skin is smooth and clean. If you like to take baths, put some drops of olive oil in the bath water, it works wounders for the skin and hair.

So who needs to buy these exensive products, when you have cheeper better once in your own kitchen? 

Something is not right….

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When people start to inject fluids so that they will apair to be brown, put things in side of them to make bodyparst stand out, then something is dead wrong! What is wrong with what is you? If you alter to much you kind of loose yourself. Terry Pratchett says it really good in Witches abroad, even if it has to do with mirrors…. The context is that if you look for to long into a reflection that is a reflection, that is a reflection of yourself you will get lost and loose yourself. The same thing goes with all the altering that is done to a body. When you alter something, you intend to loose a bit that was you. 

 

I just put on makeup fix my hair and get derssed. What I put on is who I am not anything else. I am still me when I look into the reflection in the mirror. I am not lost, I am me! I imbrace me with all my good sides and the once I do not like so much, they together makes me.

Soo, tired!

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 It started yestrday evening. My pain was worse than usual. Not even a tiny little warning, but there it was just like someone took a knife and twisted it around in my hip!

So with very little sleep and painkillers in the system I am at work trying to get something done. I wish this day could go a little faster, so that I can go home and feel like spaced out. Ever had that feeling? I was bored out of my scull last night, but I had no strenght to get up and find something to do…. So I stayed in bed stairing at nothing but darkness, trying to sleep. It was very long hours there in the dark…. So this day is in the coma drooling zombie state…. Yes I am physically here, but my brain is out of order!

 

I am trying to get myself together, but it is not really working…. Maby it will be better tomorrow…. 

One good thing today was that we lit candels at the breakfast table this morning! It was nice and relaxing to eat with only candle light watching the sun come up. 

Take care!

Music and clothes?

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So, I wear black , heavy makeup and like non mainstream music! Yes I am not  under thirty and I still refuse to follow the mainstream. 

I like when people stare because they can not make head or tailes of what they see…. I have a diffrent style which is a mix of Goth, Industrialgoth, metal and Victorian with Christian in front. I dress just as I feel, the music varies, but it is mostly Goth, industrial goth, metal. One of my favorite bands are Coriolis.

If you are in to this kind of stuff and you have never heard of Coriolis I suggest that you go to www.coriolisband.com. You will not regret it! This type of music works no matter what you do or feel! 

 

If you have a problem with what I wear I do not really care, I just enjoy your reaction. The  more you stare and look confused or so, the happier I get! We are all diffrent and maby you like what you have, but I like what I have and I do not stare at you!